When I was living with my parents I remember an incident involving one of our cats, Bridget, and her kittens. She had mated with our other cat, Jacques. I don’t know why we didn’t have either one of them fixed. I was too young to understand the issue, I guess. Now, of course, I realize this was irresponsible and wouldn’t think of adopting a cat (or dog for that matter) without having it spayed/neutered. But a litter she did have and we obviously had trouble finding them homes.
I often accompanied my Dad to his office on Saturdays, happily playing on his secretary’s typewriter while he worked. This Saturday was sunny and warm. My Dad thought it would be a great idea to bring Bridget and her kittens with us and leave them somewhere near his workplace with the idea that “someone would drive by, see them, and pick them up.” This concept horrifies me now, but being a child I went along with the program. Inside, though, I knew it was a bad idea.
The place where my Dad worked was on the outskirts of Silicon Valley. Back then companies were surrounded by great swaths of well-manicured grass. It was on a green median that we placed our parcel of cats and drove to the workplace. A couple hours or so later we got in the car to head home. Thankfully my Dad’s conscience got the better of him and decided we should check on mom and her brood. Good thing we did.
The poor things were right where we left them. Huddled together and terrified. I’m shedding tears as I write this. So we packed them back up to bring them home. I will NEVER forget the way Bridget nestled in my lap as far she could nestle.
(We did find good homes for the kittens and their Mom.)
This story came back to me recently because of how I’m feeling these days. Being back home in Santa Clara, I feel like Bridget might’ve felt that day in my lap. Grateful. Safe. Wonderfully Happy. The first card says it all:
Cups cover emotions, relationships, intuition, and the subconscious.
Sometimes referred to as the “happily ever after” card, the 10 of Grails (Cups) represents the end of emotional discord and a time of stability, warmth, and great happiness. The Vampyress here is clearly in a state of bliss. Rapture. She has been enriched and nourished by the blood of life within the cup she holds. All tens mark the completion of a cycle. Revel in the warmth and focus on things that bring you pleasure and nurture your soul.
But (there’s always a “but”) the one trouble I have with being in a state of complete bliss is my inability to get things done! Think back to the last time you fell head-over-heels in love. You were useless for days, weren’t you? Well, you don’t have to be in love to have your head in the clouds. The concepts are there (I have TONS of notes in my black book) but I’ve been unable to craft any of them into a Post. Unmotivated. All I seem to want to do is putter around the place and revel in the warmth. I’ve given myself permission to enjoy the moment and haven’t pushed myself to get off my ass…
Controlled rapture. That’s the moniker I’ve given to the 4 of Grails (Cups). This card reads like an old silent movie. Succumbing to her pleasure, the woman has swooned under the Vampyre’s kiss. She is enraptured and has lost control. Four is the number of structure and stability. The 4 of Grails cautions us to enjoy the moment but do not become carried away by it.
(Guess it’s time to pull my head out of the clouds and get off my ass. ≋;> )